As we grow up and experiment life, we realize that things just get more complicated as we grow older. More responsibilities, more things to think about, more goals, more challenges, less real friends, and so on.
Love was a feeling I used to know. Now I’m not quite sure it is what I used to think it was. Life has changed a lot and experience makes us become weary of what we feel and what we don’t and to be honest I haven’t felt love in a really long time.
Love has become more of an illusion than a feeling, it’s supposed to be something you feel and don’t see which confirms my point of love being something that isn’t quite there.
I don’t know if the fact that I really don’t know what this is anymore makes me an insensitive person or the fact that I can’t describe what it’s like what is holding me back from experiencing this once again.
I feel an emptiness in certain ways, a part of me is missing. I’ve tried so hard to work on other important aspects of life and made an effort to achieve other goals that I have forgotten what love is.
I have tried to feel this again and logic always gets in the way or I don’t know if it simply isn’t time to do this. I just keep wondering if I will be able to feel this illusion once again in my life.
I wonder if it is the missing puzzle in this quest of happiness. How and when will I find out what is love?
Distance teaches us many things. It teaches us to appreciate the people that you used to see everyday and took for granted and whom are not by your side everyday anymore. It teaches you that the more days pass the easier it becomes to pick out the friends you thought you had but realized that with distance they vanish in the air and disappear. It teaches you that you are your best friend and that now that you have more time to get to know yourself is when improvements need to be made to become a better person. It teaches you that some people are not what they seem and that trusting is something not to be taken lightly. It teaches you that sometimes it is better to remain silent and learn when it’s ok to open your mouth & think before you talk. It teaches you to become a stronger person and to put on a brave face and face the world. It teaches you that life isn’t easy and that sometimes things are not as easy as you thought they would be. It teaches you that some dreams are not realistic and that sometimes it’s necessary to re-think them. It teaches you to have patience. It teaches you that you may not have what you want right now but in the long run will acheive things little by little with a lot of hard work. It teaches you to love those that love you and surprises you by letting you see those that you thought didn’t feel that way for you. It teaches you to love life and take everyday as it comes and hope that each day gets better and better and closer to acheiving our dreams.
Life is full of mishaps, situations, people and change. Things can change in instants from good to bad or from bad to good and most of the time you can’t control most of the things that happen.
A lot of thought needs to be put into the things we say and what we do because we will always have to deal with the consequences of our actions.
Going through new experiences I have realized that things do happen for some reasons and that is to make us learn from everything that we live through each day of our life. We shouldn’t take the experiences for granted and we should learn the most we can from each one.
Relationships, whether friendships or romantic, are so complicated and delicate…you have to handle them with care because just like glass, it may shatter to pieces in any second and getting them back together can take forever or sometimes you may never be able to get it together again.
I am a person that has so much love and feelings to offer but I keep holding them back because I’ve been hurt so many times before that I am very careful with how I handle them. But sometimes you can’t avoid feelings and they creep up on you when you’re alone and when you think of the special people that have gone through your life. Bringing up walls around yourself is hard and its even harder trying to keep them up when sometimes you just want to open up and be vulnerable…but people are so willing to hurt you when you are vulnerable that its much easier just closing up and not letting anyone in.
Life changes constantly and it’s something we can’t avoid…time is precious and we have to use it the best way we can and not let trivial things in our mind keep us from enjoying each day to the fullest and trying to be the happiest we can.
I know that I am now in a process of change and adaptation that is not being easy and that is going to give me the lesson of my life and that the future will lead the way patiently for which I will be ready and there will come a time when everything I’ve always wanted will be in place and you never know….
Life is filled with memorable moments which we keep stored in our minds and in our hearts. But they way we remember them is always an important factor, whether you associate a person to a memory, a smell, a color, a place or whatever, my favorite way to define a special or important moment is with a song.
Whether it’s a happy, sad, sour or special moment you can find a song to define it in this large universe of music, rhythms, genres, songs, singers and djs.
Memories can define who you are in a future and recalling these memories are what can keep you moving forward because you can always go back to it whenever you are feeling lost so that you can find your way once again.